Sorry for not being here for a while. I just feel like I have so much to talk about and share with you. I know this a bit weerd and not that common, but lets talk difficulties and how you can "bennfit" from it. I don't want to bother you with mine, but ---NEWS FLASH--- life is hard. don't be down, this one will be optimistic. Lets save what I have for now with me, I don't know you that good. Maybe I will open up the upcoming posts. I don't everthing is pink, there are hard things, sad things...HERE IT COMES: It's all about stepping out from our microcosmos and seeing the big picture. Something that realy changed me and the way I handle with mysel
f is the fact that I volunteered two years at the kids oncology department at the local hospital. Why? can't say. Well..after two years it all looks to me so much different. The things I saw there made me cry (within) not once. There aren't any words to make you feel the way I felt when I went there. The chidrens thank you smiles, parents hugs and the "I love you" looks. Children I loved had passed away, without saying anything. Children I loved heald, so I could love them untill today. Oh man, the stomac action I have right now for writing those words. In the past two years I am thinking. Thinking about my diffulties and how they just doesn't count anymore. I just can't allow myself to take those difficulties into considoration while watching those kids struggle. Respect life, Respect your parents, Respect yourself. Those two years were more to me than 3 university years. When I saw kids, in bad shapes smiles, I thought to myself; (1) maybe they just not getting it or (2) he is unbelivebly smart. It allways turned up to be the the second one. those years had changed me. I love life. Try it.
